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W13: Dear future self…

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Yeo Ya Qi (1901604) Hello Future.  Dear future Ya Qi,  It must be a dream come true moment when I write this letter to you.  Somehow I get to foresee my future self, you. Oh, my bad. You might have a different name by now. Sarah? Melinda? Felicia?  Or are you a boy now? John? Darren? Thomas?  Apparently, I don't get to foresee everything about you.  Everything is uncertain.  The only thing I am certain of is my heart and the determination in myself, to become who I want to be.   To my great relief, you are on your way to becoming a world-class badminton player, just like what I dreamt of.  Just because  I am such a badminton maniac and I’ve watched so many tournaments, I know that all the past life memory captured by my eyes will pass on to you well so that you can easily use them as your reference.  I see now you are in the national team, doing endless training, developing and maintaining physical and mental stamina. No fun, no parties, no alcohol.  That’s not the worst part yet. 

W12: Dear Malaysians…

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Yeo Ya Qi (1901604) Are you a proud Malaysian?  Dear fellow countrymen,  Can you imagine how far we have been all this long?  Today our country Malaysia is celebrating the 65th anniversary of its independence on Wednesday, Aug 31, IT'S BEEN THAT FAR!  Decades ago, our ancestors from all 4 corners travelled all the way here and brought us together. We are given a new identity as Malaysian ever since then.  Anyway, that's not the main point.  The real problem is that you are still so unappreciative and ignorant after all these years.  Have you been overseas?  If you have been overseas for an extended period, you will definitely miss the local food. I am dedicating this to my fellow friends who always ask me what to eat every time we go out for a meal. Malaysians are officially categorized into four major groups, namely Malay, Chinese, Indian and Indigenous Orang Asli, with a plethora of subcultural ethnicities among each. And everyone brings their own unique flavours that make up

W10: Dear lecturers...

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Yeo Ya Qi (1901604) Better than a thousand days of diligent study is one day with a great teacher. Dear Lecturers, Do you know that there's actually a famous saying among the students:  Why do lecturers always expect the students to do well in all subjects when they can't even teach all the subjects? Although to some extent, it is true that the students are underestimating the difficulty of teaching, the lecturers also play a part in this problem because most of them never really understand what the students need.   To be very honest, as a student, I too, always put the blame for not scoring well on the lecturers, questioning their dedication and the way they teach.  I always thought that teaching is easy, all you need is just to have a reference book, and you elaborate on your teaching content and that’s it. But to my disappointment, some lecturers don't even bother to share their knowledge and decided to just read the given notes word by word. The lack of anticipation eve

W8: Dear abusers...

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Yeo Ya Qi (1901604) I hope that Karma finds you well. Dear Uncle Roger and Aunt Rosalie, It has been a long while since we met, but  I will never forget your faces. Though you might be disappointed with the update, Brother John is currently doing well in school and he no longer cries to sleep at night.  I'm glad to see him finally overcome the mental barriers you set for him.  Although the pain and torture seem to be relieving on him, I can never forgive you for what you did to him. I can never forget the scene I witnessed that night.  The devilish smile on your face, dark brown leather belt, red swollen skin exposed in the air, and the 5-year-old boy sitting at the corner crying and shivering in great fear.  I was stunned, overwhelmed by the scene that had just happened right in front of my eyes. I even remember Uncle Roger's reactions. No shock nor guilt. What happened just now was just a regular routine for you.  Aunt Rosalie, though you were never physically involved in thi

W6: Dear God...

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Yeo Ya Qi (1901604) What is your real intention? Dear God, No one has proven your existence even after all these years. You might be a true person who everyone encountered daily. You might be invisible, hiding aside, observing all the good and evil. Or are you just an imaginary persona that was well developed by people over the years? Hard to say. It has been a tough year. Finally, I get to settle down and write this letter to you. For me, you are the all-knower and the all-mighty. I earnestly wished to be like you so that e very time I make decisions, I am able to know the consequences and avoid disasters. If I knew it earlier, I would have run away with my family and headed to the "oasis" to stay away from the woeful tragedy... There are so many knowns and unknowns out there, but you can easily know what is going to happen and you never blundered. Even if I made mistakes, I can do everything to correct them, if I were you - the omnipotent existence. I always wonder, Where d

W4: Dear mom & dad…

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Yeo Ya Qi (1901604) I can never thank you enough... (Anonymous, 2013) Dear mom & dad, Thank you for the awesome parenting. Do you know that when it comes to parenting, both of you are one-of-a-kind? While other parents are being very strict and often intervening in their children's lives in the name of love, you never set restraints on our decisions and choices, allowing us to take complete control of our lives. Others might think that I have irresponsible and unloving parents, but I know that I'm in good hands. When I make mistakes, instead of scolding me into submission, both of you always give me insightful talks and this gave me the opportunity for self-reflection. When I experience failure and feel low-spirited, your comforting words and morale-boosting actions mitigated the negativity and rejuvenated me. When I feel belittled, your words of affirmation and encouragement help me to regain my confidence. You never demand us to follow your lead, you encourage us to dis

W2: Dear past self...

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Yeo Ya Qi (1901604) Self-doubt and emotional insecurity are just part of youth. (Anonymous, 2014) Dear past self, You are such a happy-go-lucky person. You live nonchalantly, believing that any obstacles that come across will be resolved in no time. What an ideal life it is when everything that you are involved in is going in the direction where you wish it would be. However, remarkable grades, loving parents, carefree life, and all the sunshine and rainbows trapped you in your comfort zone. Once you are out of your comfort zone, you felt lost and miserable because you find it hard to fit in. Soon as you realize it, you start to question your life, your identity, your self-worth, and your target. Do you have a target? Who are you without everything you have now? This is the moment where you realize that all you need to do is to step out of that zone and find your true self. I am glad that you followed your heart to take baby steps towards self-improvement and self-discovery by joining